Surviving.

some days it feels like we're barely doing just that. No, we dont have the disastor of an earthquake, or a tsunami. But today, the challenge ahead, looks just as big. $$...to pay the bills. where is it all going to come from. where does it end. what next? it takes money to make money. and this in-between is about to drown me. this in between of investing money...and then waiting for the return. pinching pennies, to hold on as long as we can. God, help me to trust. to keep trusting. Trusting that You will carry us thru. in whatever way!

Cassette tapes and i love you's

i know, i know. Who even uses them anymore...(me). I have a few around here that i've picked up here and there. Mostly childrens story tapes or songs. Well, Justin discovered a few weeks ago, that its really fun to pull the tape out. He did it again this morning. Its a good thing this mommy has a lot of practice fixing those things. I need to round them all up, and put them in a safe place. Maybe today, while i'm cleaning the living room anyway.
Last evening the boys called daddy, just before they went to bed. Justin was jabbering as usual. A "'llo", and mostly jabber...and then. When daddy's telling them good night, and I love you, Justin says,  "I lo' 'u". Once again...i'm pretty sure he's talking a lot more than we give him credit for. Its not very clear, but if i'm listening...it sure sounds like he's "saying" the right words at the right time.
It's nap time, and i sent Quinten upstairs awhile. He called down the steps just a bit ago..."mommy, its the bath & body song..." ....who knows, with him.

i'm sitting here, wishing i could go back to bed. My eyes are burning, and it just seems like itd be a great day to take it easy, sleep awhile longer, etc. But it is not to be. Already this morning, we headed out to drop something off at the accountant, and then stopped for groceries while we were in town. There's a few "extra" little ones here again this morning. Not necessarily a bad thing, just a bit more mentally draining, etc.
On the way home this morning, Quinten comments, as we're going up the hill..."mommy, we can go up the hill with our race car...but not with the dirt bike, right mommy?" The other week, he was looking at a magazine that his daddy got awhile ago...and saw the "race cars" that looked like our car. A few days latter when daddy bought new tires for our car...Quinten was quite convinced that we now have a race car!!
Its hard to believe Christmas is only 8/9 days away. I still have Quintens gift to finish, and a few things that i really need to order...hopefully they'll come in time. And Christmas decor...well, its been on my list of things to do for quite a few weeks already, but i havent seen to much around the house yet. Seems theres always something else that needs to be done first. And till thats done, its just not worth starting anything else. Maybe today will be the day. Then again...the cleaning for the week needs to be done today, and a few loads of wash. I'm hoping to go to Ohio tomorrow afternoon and most of the day Saturday, and being host family on Sunday, means the cleaning and all should be done before i go. And so, life goes on.

A new thing.

I've been thinking of this for awhile...wondering if i'll actually take the time to write. Wondering if its worth the time. But i keep thinking of things my boys say and do, that i really dont want to forget, and that i the stories i want to share with family. So here goes.  Maybe it will happen, maybe it wont. But this is a start. Its a lazy morning here this morning. Not too much on the agenda for the day. Lots of random things we could do, nothing pressing that needs to be done. Been wanting to get lots of greens out to decorate for winter...but not too much has happend yet. Maybe today will be the day. I guess time will tell.